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    2017-05-24 11:00
    &ldquo;I grew up outside of Miami. It wasn&rsquo;t easy to be young, black, and gay in my neighborhood. It was a very masculine space. All the guys played basketball or football. They wore oversize clothes. There was a clearly defined idea of what it meant to be a man. And I spent a lot of energy trying to meet that standard. I didn&rsquo;t like sports but I played anyway. If I ever got bullied for acting feminine, or hanging out with girls, I&rsquo;d take it to the extreme and insist on fighting. The black man is expected to be a rock. I think it comes from our history. We were abused for so long, I think there&rsquo;s a resistance to ever being vulnerable again.&rdquo;<br>
    2017-05-24 11:00
    &ldquo;I just had to sit down because I got short of breath. I was at a restaurant earlier where the manager had to seat me at the counter because I couldn&rsquo;t fit in the booth. &nbsp;I have pain in my knees and my joints. I sleep with a breathing apparatus at night. &nbsp;And I&rsquo;m a great candidate for a heart attack. &nbsp;I hate it. &nbsp;I hate the way I feel. &nbsp;But I&rsquo;ve been overweight for so long that people assume I don&hellip;&rsquo;t want to lose weight. &nbsp;Friends and family wonder why I don&rsquo;t just stop eating. &nbsp;But it&rsquo;s an addiction for me. &nbsp;When I walk past a bakery, I feel the same way that an alcoholic must feel when he walks past a bar. &nbsp;But people seem to think that the alcoholic is unable to quit. &nbsp;And they think I choose not to.&rdquo; <br>
    2017-05-24 11:00
    &ldquo;I asked her out during a movie. &nbsp;I was really nervous, so I executed with about half the talent level that I could have. I accidentally swallowed some cologne in the bathroom because I tried to open the packet with my mouth. &nbsp;Then I never actually had the courage to ask the question. &nbsp;I waited until there was a scene in the movie with a boyfriend and girlfriend, and I said: &lsquo;That could be us.&rsquo; &nbsp;It felt good coming out of my mouth. &nbsp;But then I looked over and saw confusion. &nbsp;But I rode out the awkward silence, and eventually she figured it out.&rdquo;<br>
    2017-05-24 11:00
    &ldquo;&rsquo;I&rsquo;m obsessive, but my obsessions are productive. &nbsp;I&rsquo;m happy. &nbsp;I never get depressed. &nbsp;I find life very interesting. &nbsp;I paint for hours every day. &nbsp; I have 100,000 postcards at home organized geographically. &nbsp;And I&rsquo;ve written a story about every day of my life between 1981 and 2011. &nbsp;I have 20,000 pages of notes. &nbsp;Right now I&rsquo;m in the editing phase. &nbsp;I&rsquo;ll be done with that in a couple years, and then I&rsquo;m going to copy the entire thing by hand. &nbsp;There&rsquo;s no way I can &nbsp;trust computers with something this important. &nbsp;I think I can finish the job in ten years. &nbsp;I&rsquo;m pretty sure I can live long enough.&rdquo;
    2017-05-24 11:00
    &ldquo;He&rsquo;s an actor on Broadway. &nbsp;I broke up with him in December because he couldn&rsquo;t manage his anger. &nbsp;He&rsquo;d scream at me on subway platforms. &nbsp;Once he busted my lip while trying to grab something out of my hand. &nbsp;That was when I finally ended it. &nbsp;But he called me on New Year&rsquo;s Eve and asked if he could go to a party with me. &nbsp;We&rsquo;d bought our tickets months earlier. &nbsp;They were expensive so I agreed. &nbsp;My sister was coming with us so I wasn&rsquo;t worried. &nbsp;Everyone had a great time. &nbsp;&hellip;At the end of the night, we dropped off my sister and went back to his place. &nbsp;I was so drunk that I curled up in a pile of clothes. &nbsp;When I opened my eyes he was taking photos of me and laughing. &nbsp;I immediately decided to leave. &nbsp;It was literally the start of a new year and I wanted to begin on a good note. &nbsp;He yelled at me to come back but I kept walking. &nbsp;He followed me down the stairs and grabbed my arm. &nbsp;He told me to &lsquo;stop acting stupid.&rsquo; &nbsp;Then he pinned me up against the side of his building. &nbsp;He was choking me and saying &lsquo;calm down, calm down, calm down.&rsquo; &nbsp;A van drove by and started honking at us. &nbsp;But they didn&rsquo;t stop. &nbsp;They didn&rsquo;t help me. &nbsp;I broke free and ran into traffic but nobody was stopping. &nbsp;He caught me, and pushed me up against a van, and lifted me into the air by the neck. &nbsp;When I woke up on the ground he was gone. &nbsp;I asked the judge to sentence him to anger management courses. &nbsp;He&rsquo;s finished them. &nbsp;But I&rsquo;m still dealing with the trauma of that night.&rdquo;
    2017-05-24 11:00
    &ldquo;I&rsquo;m practicing French right now. &nbsp;I want to move to Europe so I can force myself to start over. &nbsp;I have a nine-to-six job. &nbsp;It&rsquo;s a good position. &nbsp;They pay me well. &nbsp;I love my team. &nbsp;But everything just feels so familiar. &nbsp;There&rsquo;s no discomfort or uncertainty anymore. &nbsp;On weekends I go to the same neighborhood bar. &nbsp;I eat at the same restaurants that I know are good. &nbsp;I take interesting vacations, but even those tend to follow a regular pattern. &nbsp;As much as I tell myself that I&rsquo;m being adventurous when I hike in Peru&mdash;it&rsquo;s a very planned risk. &nbsp;I think a new city will be good for me. &nbsp;I&rsquo;ll start out alone. &nbsp;I&rsquo;ll be forced to reflect. &nbsp;I&rsquo;ll have a sense of unexpectedness. &nbsp;I want to feel like a tourist in my own life again.&rdquo;<br>
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